So today I called up Jan and Ruben. We arranged a jam session in Jan’s studio. They both play guitar, and I can write on my laptop. So we’re sitting there at the moment. I am writing as they are playing.
There’s not much to do for creative people in Gouda. But that doesn’t matter. As a creative, you make your own things anyway. Your own opportunities.
When I went out with Ruben yesterday, he talked about wanting to step outside his comfort zone more. He felt like he is trapped inside his own bubble. This was in response to him dancing with a girl and not taking it further – but it also applies to his creative side.
He plays guitar. So I think, he should meet some guys who play guitar and play with them.
Johnny Cash, Elvis Presley.
Creative thinking is closely related to networking. You don’t create new things in a vacuum. You have been influenced by the pictures you have seen, the museums you have visited. The music you listened to when you were a child.
You need to go out and create with others. Let others influence your work and make work socially. Step outside your comfort zone and connect.
Connecting is everything. Connecting with others, arranging connections.
My mate Jan has a dream. To play and travel across Europe with a band. So I said to him: “Why don’t you go online? You can find people there.” Jan replied that he didn’t know how to, but recognized he should do it. We’re taking small steps and I’m uploading the jam session here to try to connect with people. He is currently looking for a drummer,
My mate Ruben has a dream. To play the blues and rock ‘n roll on his guitar. Some country. I have connected him with Jan and he’s learning from a more experienced player. He has uploaded a movie clip of himself singing to Instagram, and one of the comments was “Aren’t you ashamed?”. I told him: There are producers and consumers. There are people who talk and people who get talked about. Go out and create, you will learn to transform negativity into positivity.
Ring of Fire.
I have seen a guy from my studies two days ago, who is in a depression. He feels like he is going in circles: He will feel good, which is the upper part of the circle, then it comes crashing down, which is the bottom part of the circle. After that he will climb out of his negativity and move into the upper part of the circle again. He feels like he can not escape.
I have learned to love the circle. Until I reach the pearly gates I will try to fill the circle with positivity. That’s more fun anyway. I have seen a circular painting by Anish Kapoor in my last year of high school which captures that feeling of wanting to spend your time productively and positively.
I have missed class today because I went out yesterday. At least I studied and by connecting two players, did something positive.
Nine Inch Nails. Johnny Cash.
I have danced with Jan’s sister yesterday. She’s a good dancer. She said she’ll come to the exposition.
A happy song with a screaming guitar.
Dancing is also a way to out your creativity. It’s an example of using different mediums: the music and the body, which are both physical. As Ruben danced with a girl, I again thought it’s also a way to express the sexual – a thought that makes me want to go out and dance in the city centre right now.
A song I’m not allowed to put online. I’ll have to learn how to edit audio.
I have a course on Gender and Media in American Literature. I am confronted with my views, but haven’t changed them. I would advocate not for gender vulnerability, but for gender strength: When you learn to embrace what you biologically and socially are and can become you will be all the happier. Accept the duality. When you cry out ‘social construct’ all the time you are denying yourself a lot of happiness. I have read a study which showed that Christian young women who have only had one partner are the happiest. Divorce chance and unhappiness rise as a person has had more partners. Kind of too late for me to have read it, should have read it when I was fifteen, but no reason I can’t use that knowledge to my advantage now.
Ring of Fire. Neil Young.
Jan is talking about the Free World. Freedom seems very American to me, but it’s not a bad idea. You should at least have the freedom to create the things that you want and go where you want to go. Meet who you want to meet. If you only use your freedom for getting drunk and high and laid, you are hurting yourself. Of course having that wisdom is earned, not a given.
A song introduced to Jan by the brother of a mutual friend.
As Jan was playing, I got a déjà vu. It was one of the salient features of my psychosis and I still have them from time to time. Nothing to worry about, I haven’t died yesterday and I didn’t die up until now. I’m stretching it out a bit.
A blues-y song. Stormy Monday?
Maybe we’re going to hit up the city centre later. I feel like dancing after all this music and writing. Let’s see if there’s something to dance. Talk to some people. Smoke some Marlboro Golds. Have some colas. Maybe I will see that cute barista again.
I Went Down to the Crossroads.
Jan’s good at playing. Look at his hands as he’s cultivating the strings! Ruben is getting better every day. I’m happy I got them to meet and play. If anything, I’ve recorded some colourful songs for the next generations.
A phrase I shouldn’t forget: Bear fruit to the world // Baar de wereld
One photo with the three of us.
Until the next time.