I again bought cigarettes and cigars today despite knowing better. Didn’t even think about it. Smoked some, got lightheaded, then poured water in the almost full packs and threw them in the bin.
It’s just not me anymore. I’d rather be the guy who paints to expand and reads to grow than the guy who is aware of the risks but still smokes.
For a year and three months I’ve been telling myself to quit. Now this is it.
Time to make it so and save my dough. I spent 700EU on tobacco since January 2019, money which could have been saved, paid back into my student debt, or invested.
I give praise for the insight. Now it’s time to find the strength to change to add not smoking to my inventory list of things that I’m doing well. When it’s out of my system I might even look back and find wisdom as to how tobacco affected me.
Until the next time.